Do you remember the feeling of not feeling anything? And the world crashing around you and your just holding yourself up to the barely functioning level of competence?
The damn chain of events. Those hellish circumstances far beyond your control.
And all can do is try to fight for some sort of contentment. All you really can do is try to convince yourself that it won't happen again.
Never ever; never, never, never, ever again.
But you know it doesn't mean much; telling yourself lies to deal with truth. It won't change anything, but the act of trying feels like you got somewhere.
"I must not tell lies."
And do you remember being an empty shell not able to feel anything because you felt so much in the past few hours? Can you call back a time of when you fought so valiantly for a great day just to fail?
The problem of not feeling anything is you feel nothing.
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